I thought we were happy the way we  are. I guess I thought wrong! I thought you were my Mr. right, I guess I thought wrong. Turns out that you were my Mr wrong, damn I can’t believe I’m wasting my time writing this shit! I can’t believe all the time I put into this mess. I wanna say good bye but I can’t I’m too weak to just let you go! I don’t know if I could handle saying good bye to you!

I’m looking for hope in a hopeless place! I knew it would be this way, it always happens this way! I’m never going to be happy! I’m never going to be loved by someone that loves me like my mother loves me. I think to myself I’m going to live with my mother til I die. I pray it don’t happen like this.

They all say GABBIE your only 19… I say I know but most people find there happiness years before I will. I keep my thoughts in my head  because most people don’t know what I go threw. If they did they would know that I’ve tried for years only to have a heart break like I do all the time…

I feel so alone. I feel that NOBODY cares. I feel like I’m just here. I don’t know what I’m here for. I’ve asked the Lord so many times just to be happy for hours at a time. I just don’t know anymore! I don’t know why I am here. Lord knows I do my best… Lord please help me!